DEREVOLI@LIVEJOURNAL
be it sweet or bitter; 9:07 PM
Saturday, June 30, 2007
be it sweet or bitter; 8:43 AM
Sunday, June 10, 2007
call me fickle minded.
be it sweet or bitter; 7:07 PM
Saturday, May 19, 2007
be it sweet or bitter; 8:18 PM
舍不得，但还是要离开了。
be it sweet or bitter; 5:18 AM
Saturday, May 12, 2007
my blog is back!
shld i switch to lj or continue with this blog?
argh!i dont know:/
anyway,i finally made my specs!:D
rarr.
so should i switch or not?
shall go and mug soon.
im so so so looking forward to momo!:DDD
be it sweet or bitter; 10:36 PM
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
i rather not talk about it though.
although i dont know what happened,but i'll be here
be it sweet or bitter; 5:23 AM
Monday, May 07, 2007
sometimes i really dont know why,but it feels so good just hanging around with them,even only doing simple stuff like eating kfc!HAHA.
THE TWO OF THEM REALLY ROCK MY SOCKS OFF!
i hope we will have more time to spend tgt!:]
try to keep your mondays free okay?
IT SHALL BE ZINGER DAY!:DDD
okay,it seems weird to be saying this type of things to people whom i see everyday!LOL.but ohwells,at times when we are all busy with different stuff,its great to be able to spend time like this:D
anyway,to the SOMEONE whom i know you will be seeing this:D
im really thankful for your eh,encouragement.
you made me feel like crying la,stupid woman!:/
i guess maybe i just feel very...touched?
or maybe ive been trying to hide my emotions for quite some time le.
its really really great that we are still you know,friends.
as in those type of real friends.
im glad we still find it easy to talk to each other.
outing soon k?
we must go out after my production!
and just for your simple words,i will believe that miracles do happen:]
those people made my day
even my screwed chi paper does not seem so bad now:]
and now its time for physics.
be it sweet or bitter; 5:18 AM
Sunday, May 06, 2007
the whole chunk of stuff that i spent so long typing is gone
i just hate this feeling.
whenever im on my way up,i will just fall in again.
it sucks you know.
i feel silly for thinking about those things.
i give up.
im not ready.at all.
in fact,this is the worst year i had so far.
so many things not done
so little time
will we get there at the end of the day?
i dont know
and i dont want to know.
im scared.
what if,all the efforts we put in boil down to nothing?
judging from the situation now,
nothing can be for sure.
to be honest,how many of you actually think that we are ready?
its not a matter of believing or not.
we have to be realistic.
3 weeks,
21 days.
stop behaving as if we have all the time in the world.
she said,no matter how much time we have,or how little,its still time and things can still be done.even if its one day,or even a few hours,we can also make the best out of it.
i shall use it as my motto for now.
im not jealous.
just hoping that things can go that well for us for once.
ive been thinking about what she said
and im not sure too.
am i going that way just because everyone else ard me is doing that and im expected to do that,
or is it because of what i really want.
somehow,external pressure always stands.
in a few months time,the only thing left will be a bye.
what am i still thinking about that?
im not the wishy-washy type
or maybe,i wasnt.
do you even care?
im sorry.i know i suck to be even thinking about it.
the following 21 days are more important.
at least for now.
be it sweet or bitter; 2:25 AM
Saturday, May 05, 2007
progress is not bad i guess.
tmr is a time to chionggg
PHYSICS AND EMATHS.
i want at least a B for both.
《安宁》
你的背影让我失去了理性
你的放弃让我迷失了自己
你的离去就像刺青 永远烙印在我的心
是如此痛而如此的美丽
我努力的想哭泣 却哭不出泪滴
一次又一次的灰心 才发现早已麻痹
终于发现自己 已经不在乎你
原来分手也能如此安宁
enough for the day
time to have some time for relaxation
goodnight the world
be it sweet or bitter; 11:32 PM
anyway,gonna quote from mons
huahui is not about achieving & winning, it's about the spirit. We often make decisions which seems stupid & ridiculous to other, but behind all those, it's because of the things we believe in. That everyone deserves a chance even if they are not the best. Even when everything seems impossible, we never stop trying.
its really true.things that we do are often not understood by other people.
but we continue on anyway.
是那份执著
那份外人不可能理解的执著。
although i cannot say that everyone has the passion for what we are doing
but at least,i can still see people who are
and i guess thats good enough.
if not we definitely will not be hanging on till now.
every year,the time and effort we put in for qihang is so much that i cannot believe it myself too.
many times i feel really tired and unable to continue on,but strangely,i will always find the strength to carry on somehow.
这么多的努力换来的是启航当天无法形容的感动。
maybe a lot of people cannot understand why we will cry on qihang,
but its just the weird emotion that is so overwhelming that it cannot be control
and you really need to be committed in order to experience it.
i won bother to hide my disappointments
my disappointment in seeing huahui getting less and less bonded
seeing more and more people getting uninterested in huahui
seeing less and less people who are really passionate about huahui
是一种心灰的感觉
if this continues on,i guess huahui will just collapse one day.
and guess what,the day won be far from now.
i suddenly miss the old cldds a lot
huahui used to be pretty small and pathetic in size
but we had the spirit that is so lacking now
things are like so different now.
i dont deny i wish we could be how we were in the past
its not the merger,really.
if you force people into doing things that they dont like,
results will never be good.
unless the people make an effort and try to be interested in what they need to do.
what more can i say?
its less than 1 month to stepping down.
无论多执著，始终得放下。
and i realised passion can wear off too.
all the things that we believe in,all the passion and love,
i really wonder how long that will last.
be it sweet or bitter; 9:43 PM
paiju was rather productive today!:D
yay!we can do it!WE MUST:]
went to ikea with mons aft paiju
had fun walking around like aunties carrying the BIG BIG ikea yellow bags plus giant plastic bags!
HAHA.
i like ikea's hotdogs!:]
more or less settled qihang presents already.
YAY.call us efficient:D
but im like quite broke now and still got some not settled yet :(
anyway,today is a overall good day!:DD
lots of smilies in this post so its good:]
she told me 你也是个念旧的人
希望那些回忆你也在珍惜。。。
be it sweet or bitter; 6:07 AM
Friday, May 04, 2007
thats like a record for me.haha!
okay.shall start from MONDAY
went to KFC aft maths remedial with dear mons.
zinger=<3!
it was good:]
she was blushing because of SOMETHING:X
TUESDAY was labour day.
paiju was...
lots of mosquitos everywhere!:(
black XWEI!
and white LAYS!
tweety wasnt there.haha!
so i took a series of photos of her in the following paiju!
caught unawared!:D
doesnt she looks like shes doing some dance moves?HOHO.
and ju recess today!:]
quite cool except the fact that im like one of the few who were high!HAHA.
anyway,its good.maybe we can have one more before qihang!:DD
paiju tmr!hope it will be good!:D
and ikea with mons after that!RARR.*excited*
honestly,i cannot see whats wrong.
do you mind enlightening me or something?
i dont understand why things are well,kind of awkwardd between us now.
is it you?or maybe its me.
then i guess you should just let me know whats wrong.
i hate it when you,or rather,we all try to act as if nothing has happened,but yet it just seems so fake,cause apparently we all know that something happened.
sometimes i dont really get it when you expect everyone to put you as their top priority
have i ever been your top priority?
cant you see that your way of handling friendships is sometimes just so damn unfair?
im determined to study like mad this weekend!HOHO.
things to do:
-eng mind map
-chem assignment
-study maths
-study physics
-study chem SPA
tests next week:
emaths.
physics.
chem spa.
i MUST DO WELL.
ROARS
im controlling
be it sweet or bitter; 10:30 PM
so today was election for huahui EXCO 08'
it felt a bit weird sitting in the front row again and it feels rather sad to realise that we are all leaving very soon
i guess we have something very different from the other ccas.
***
no.you dont understand.you really dont.
be it sweet or bitter; 7:40 AM
Sunday, April 29, 2007
sometimes i wonder,maybe you are still there.
no matter how hard ive been trying to tell myself no,
to tell myself that its time for you to go
you are still there
it feels silly to be holding on to something that i never had
and no,its not the time to be emo
im happy with the life i have now
the life without you
the life with many small imperfections.
but i guess its these imperfections that can go me going
working harder to get what i really want
and making my life a tad more "perfect" in that sense.
im glad i know what i want.
突然在想，当我把每天的经历划成文字记录在这里时，那些划成文字的经历在我心里还会深刻吗？
i guess im still troubled by that topic
be it sweet or bitter; 11:42 AM
Saturday, April 28, 2007
felt pretty zi lian cause almost all the pictures posted have me only!
HAHA:]
paiju today was :X
only my ju people plus some other ppl will know!HAHA.
went for lunch with mum after that
walked around and i finally bought the macbeth guidebook!
shall be studious and go start on it soon:]
today is the first saturday without bai se ju ta!
im so sad:(
RARR.
some pictures taken quite some time ago
esti,xwei,mingee and me!
one more!
pepper lunch!:]
be it sweet or bitter; 1:02 AM
breakfast-ed with mons in the morning before going for lessons
saw ser they all and sort of had a "combined" breakfast.HAHA!
lessons were pretty boring.
mrs khor was very funny
stoned and talked to ser most of the time while trying to memorise the house cheer.
lunched with the mons and esti was <3!
we walked around for damn long before we finally decided on what to eat!
haha!
yummy!:]
they love to make me look as if i finished ALL the food:X
cannot believe my last sports day is already over!
so blue didnt win in the end but im damn damn damn happy that we won the house cheer!
:]
its like at first i think our house cheer sucks cause during the practices everyone was very soft and everything...
but we still did it!:D
i thought blue was pretty dramatic yesterday
apparently due to the rain,the specs stand was wet and we got seperated
some were sitting at the part of specs stand which didnt get wet while some were gathered outside the sci labs
then they suddenly announced that its blue's turn for house cheer!
we ran all the way from the sci labs passing by everyone else
i felt that it was pretty cool.HAHA!
and so we did our house cheer seperately.some were at the specs stand while some were below the specs stand.
i literally screamed my lungs out!i thought we were rather loud and for that moment when we finally finished,i felt really proud of blue house:]
the rest of the sports day was fine.
went to find jiayi!:]
RARR.we both can scream REAL loudly.lol
went to kfc after that with mons and xwei!:D
YES!MY ZINGER!!!
nah,none of the food were eaten by me cause i had to be home for dinner:(
the poor me only had a sip of drink:(
SPASTIC!-grins- (my teeth looks yellow here for some unknown reasons:/)
anyway,that marks the end of the day!home sweet home after that with xwei.
i love longg bus rides:]
be it sweet or bitter; 1:01 AM
Thursday, April 26, 2007
yet theres like nothing to talk about
RARR
sports day tmr
not really looking forward to it but ohwells,thats what i ALWAYS say before sports day
last sports day in st nicks
got reminded of something esti and i talked about last time
i guess the occasion when the sn spirit is the strongest is always sports day
hope i will enjoy it in the end.
still have lessons in the morning!:(
but am looking forward to breakfast with SOMEONE
i know shes like excited too!:D
oh.and not to forget lunch!
im looking forward to that too!:D
today is an okay day
finally we were pretty productive:]
and i learnt how to play zuijin on piano!<3
and f.y.i
i dont know how to play piano one OKAY.
proud of myself -grins-
im getting a little high for no rhyme of reason
but im very tired at the same time
okay,im talking crap.
byebye
“真正的勇气是用来追求那种最简单的幸福...当我们在这里做我们想做的事，天堂就是我们一伸手就碰到的地方。如果你要幸福，你要坚定地伸出手，去做你想做的事，去爱你身边最爱的人。不要等，因为幸福从来没有离开过，只是你有没有看见。”
be it sweet or bitter; 7:16 AM
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
and it was that overwhelming i got a shock myself
i always hate it when efforts do not equal to results.
as mentioned by xwei,its the unjust feeling.
i guess only we can understand.
dont worry,huahui WILL show all what we are made of
qihang will be so well enough to make everyone's jaws drop.
i really hope so too.
i guess that shall be my motivation
anyway,we got on i weekly for css!
HAHA!
bu kui shi xiao wei de SIAO yuan super-fans!:D
be it sweet or bitter; 6:52 PM
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
and disappointed and angry and pissed
at myself
i think im not in the position to even care
for some unknown reasons,i was just really concerned
and i guess i cared too much
its not like anyone of you will appreciate me for being concerned
or even notice how much i care.
theres 2.4 tmr
sucks la.i CANNOT run.
i really hate it when people say they cannot run when they actually can.
and for your info,my definition of cannot run means below a C
not when you cannot get your freaking A.
its the same when people say they didnt study for a test when they actually did
like hello?just admit when you got study la.
whats the point of telling people you never study when you did.
its just so annoying.
you just dont give a damn
it hurts when im looking at you but you kan ye bu kan yi yan
we need time together.
its really been ages since we spent time together.
my weekend was great but today is still such a shitty day
it sucks to have so many shitty days in a row.
sometimes i really dont know the reasons for me to hang on.
your expectations seem to be so high
high until its real hard for me to reach
be it sweet or bitter; 9:05 PM
Monday, April 23, 2007
thought abt a lot of things and made myself even more confused.
nah,the content cannot be revealed here.
如果我那些自以为很珍贵的回忆对你来说只不过是一段平凡的过往，那我应该怎么办？
someone told me something which i think its kind of true
只要那些回忆对你而言珍贵就好了，为什么连对方也要觉得珍贵呢？
如果连对方都觉得珍贵的话，那些回忆对你而言，还会一样的珍贵吗？
no matter what,我会紧紧握住那些回忆。
《我怀念的》
作词:姚若龙作曲:李偲菘
我问为什么那女孩传简讯给我
而你为什么不解释低着头沉默
我该相信你很爱我 不愿意敷衍我
还是明白你已不想挽回什么
想问为什么我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着 把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕真相太赤裸裸
狼狈比失去难受
我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦
我怀念的是争吵以后还是想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手 最暖的胸口
谁记得
谁忘了
我怀念的是无言感动
我怀念的是绝对炽热
我怀念的是你很激动求我原谅抱得我都痛
我记得你在背后
也记得我颤抖着
记得感觉汹涌
最美的烟火 最长的相拥
谁爱得太自由 谁过头太远了
谁要走我的心
谁忘了那就是承诺
谁自顾自地走
谁忘了看着我 谁让爱变沉重
谁忘了要给你温柔
我怀念的
我还有想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空最紧的右手最暖的胸口
我放手
我让座
假洒脱
谁懂我多么不舍得
太爱了
所以我
没有哭
没有说
anyway,results are STILL not out yet!
dont know whats the problem lah.
so damn slow:X
be it sweet or bitter; 3:50 AM
and its like after dont know much many lousy cuts,
its finally a decent one!:D
photobucket is giving me problems.
i cannot upload pictures!:(
used back my old old opendiary.
i guess thats my really really private diary
will use it for stuff that i cannot post here.
and why arent the results out yet?
its so damn irritating,
like the whole world is waiting for the results and it just refuses to come out
RARR
be it sweet or bitter; 12:55 AM
Sunday, April 22, 2007
i feel like puking.
HAHA
be it sweet or bitter; 10:00 PM
i actually done joy luck club just now!:D
so proud of myself
woohoo.
白色巨塔is <333!
the ending is so impactful
RARR.im high now because MadGirl is so entertaining.
shes really mad i tell you
when you're gone, says:
* says 'dont scold xuezhen anymore luh, though she's quite disgusting'
when you're gone, says:
mg:'okay' : D
when you're gone, says:
: ((
when you're gone, says:
mg is sad
when you're gone, says:
* cracks a lame joke
when you're gone, says:
mg laughs
when you're gone, says:
huh what im mg no. 2
when you're gone, says:
you were tlaking to my other half just now
when you're gone, says:
hahah
when you're gone, says:
ahhh!
when you're gone, says:
go away
when you're gone, says:
cos * mineeee
when you're gone, says:
haha toot lar, rubbish
what i said are no longer impt
i concluded shes really mad
haha!
wait till i print out the convo and show it to tweety they all
-eveil laughter-
ps:name changed to * to protect privacy and mg=mad girl.she refuses to let me put her name.LOL
MWHAHA
anyway.syf results tmr.
good luck people.
be it sweet or bitter; 9:33 PM
and im happy:]
monday is a school holiday!
YAY!
although got paiju but its still better than going to school:]
RARR
sport's day is on friday
i have never liked sports day before
but since its like my last year in st nicks,
i shall try to enjoy it.
actually i always say i dont like,but will still end up having fun one la.
lol
super no content.
im bored at home now.
will try to do some work soon
time really passes very quickly
yesterday was over within a blink of eye
like i was beginning to enjoy myself then the day was over already
and its already 2 plus now but i haven done anything the whole day
in fact,i slept through almost half of the day,i woke up at 11.
:/
the only thing to look forward to for the day:
白色巨塔！
yes,i admit im super crazy over it.
its the final episode today
i gonna miss it so much next weekend:(
be it sweet or bitter; 2:06 PM
Saturday, April 21, 2007
333
EEEKS.such a bad number
i shall blog something to get rid of that number.HAHA
i like long bus rides
sitting alone,thinking about things is good:]
i like.shall find more opportunities to take longg bus rides.
i weekly is funny.
they sorted out quotes from 白色巨塔！
i like.yayness man!:D
"每个人的人生要的东西不一样，不会因为你们两个人在一起就变得一样"
爱情真的不是一切。
be it sweet or bitter; 7:51 AM
白色巨塔is so so so nice!
i cannot stop awww-ing about it!
im gonna rewatch it after Os.
definitely:]
just found it on youtube.was so tempted to watch the final episode but decided not to
shall wait till tmr
HOORAY
went to eat pepper lunch with xiaowei,mingee and esti after watching syf!:]
walked around plaza sing after that
and omg,someone is so shuai with the jacket ah!-grins-
mingee and xiaowei left
then esti and i walked all the way to far east just to get our bubble tea!
<3!
the walk was long but it was great!
love talking to you about such "serious"stuff!:]
home aft that and BAISEJUTA!
OH,i better stop before i start again:]
overall,today is a HAPPY day!
mingee and i(or rather,our legs!)
with mingee and esti!(xwei was in toilet)
anyway,im waiting for more pictures!:]
oh,and to all involved in syf,
WELL DONE!
huahui is proud of you all no matter what the results are:]
be it sweet or bitter; 7:05 AM
Friday, April 20, 2007
and i guess its better not to mention about yesterday
im just pissed because i was trying real hard to progress
but things turned out that way
im sorry if i sound heartless
but i just cannot understand why you can just break down like that.
i dont regret that i showed that i care
because i really do
syf tmr.
huahui's FIRST SYF.
FIRST SYF for chinese drama.
although im not directly involved,i still hope that we can really do our best
cause we ARE HUAHUI:]
i think its the perfect chance to show the school what we are made up of.
to show the school that we should be treated equally as eldds.
im sorry
but i just cannot stand it whenever the school is biased towards a certain cca
and they make it so obvious.
like...ARGH.
although i dont think anyone will get to see this,
but to all those involved in syf,
JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU.
no stress though.you guys are good enough to make everyone's jaws drop
show THEM what we are made of:]
everytime when it comes to things like this,
i will know how much i love huahui
cause i will be like RAH,jin zhang and everything even though it doesnt directly involve me!
suddenly got reminded that i went to watch xiaopin last year too
as well as the finals of the previous year:]
time really passes very fast
and soon it will be qihang then xubie!
i rather not think about the rest of the story.
anyway,to miss lim poh ting,
dont think you will see this,
but dont too stressed la.haha!
look forward to your surprise!:]
jiayou!and bring the stage down:]]
be it sweet or bitter; 7:28 AM
Monday, April 16, 2007
tons of things waiting for me to do.
lets see,i need to:
pack my spa file,
complete eng report
and study for ss test
before i sleep tonight.
how wonderful
and im determined to do well for my ss no matter what.
recess was funny.
mons complained that i copied her by eating the same thing as her but double the amt.
HAHA!
she had chee kway and 1 siew mai
i had chee kway and 2 siew mais
then she had ru3 dan4 and 20 cents wanton
and i had ru3 dan4 and 40 cents wanton!
i think i rock!:]
haha.its so totally random:X
anyway,before i forget
ANYONE WANTS TO BUY THE NEWEST ISSUE OF I WEEKLY WITH MICHELLE CHIA ON THE COVER PAGE FROM ME?
my sis and i bought two copies accidentally.
RAH.i need to sell it off.
i dont want to waste money:(
《最近》李圣杰
你最近不说话 怎么了 为什么
是不是有什么事让你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单 有点乱 有点慌
可是我却不能够在你的身旁
你想要的 我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的 却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合 却不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释 这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是 所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束 不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
it doesnt really relate to me
just find the lyrics very saddening
it made me emo yesterday:/
guess what?
i was supposed to complete packing my chem spa file and eng report before dinner.
theres less than half an hour left now and im still here
ps:ARGH.my sms appeal to buy i weekly doesnt seem to be working.only 3 replied so far and they are all not interested!:(
be it sweet or bitter; 6:39 PM
Sunday, April 15, 2007
so many little details that i want to remember forever:]
okay,shall start from the morning.
meet xwei for breakfast,or rather is she watching me eat!
had a sausage mcmuffin with egg!yum yum:]
watching e zuo ju on the train was cool!haha!
reached tpy at 11 plus.felt intimidated by other people
all came in groups except for us.
helped her to prepare and esti arrived!
accompanied her to report and esti and i decided we should make a board for her.
went to buy all the materials but being art-idiots,
we were stuck and din know how to do the board!
HAHA!
anges,lays and charmaine came to our rescue
and the board was finally done. :]
simple,but nice!:]
went down to watch the guys first
the sun was super hot
almost could not see anything except heads,heads and MORE heads.
cheered a bit and sang the SPECIAL song:]
got kind of bored,went upstairs to join lays and esti (i think!)
it was much cooler and the view was better la! :]
stayed there with mons and lays and went down when its the girls' turn.
watched the girls and concluded that they are MUCH MUCH better than the guys!
started getting high before xwei's turn
swayed to the music and made a fool out of ourselves!LOL
cheered super loud for xwei and we were all REALLY proud of her!:]
SHE ROCKS MAN!:]]
went for a break after xwei's turn as all of us were very very tired.
haha!
went to food court
had satay beehoon and popiah with anges and wendy
i still insist I WANT THAT HUM!:(
HAHA!
went down again after that
sat down on the floor,got kind of bored again.
the judges left to confirm the results
they started playing songs and the best part came!
WE ALL SANG TO THE SONGS!haha!
it was damn high and damn crazy but I LOVE IT!:D
after the results were announced,
WE SANG HUI GE!
and also shouted many many cheers!
at that point of time,the results were not impt anymore:]
left for xwei 'qing gong yan' with esti,wendy,anges and of course,XIAOWEI!
haha!
had nice curry rice plus expensive-yet-normal bubble tea:]
all of us were quite high and started talking about how much we love huahui etc etc
HAHA!
went home with xwei after that
and the night officially ended.
-end of narrative post-
had lots of different emotions yesterday
but i guess the strongest one is the huahui spirit
i was so so so proud of all of us who went down
all of us who scream and scream like nobody's business
all of us who managed to attract so much attention!:]
haha!
during the hui ge, i saw everyone really singing their hearts out
and i told myself,THIS is the huahui spirit.
i think many of us have the love for huahui deep inside us
its just that,theres not many opportunities for us to display it
so when we really want to do it,
noone can stop us:]
its really cool to see a bunch of people there doing all sorts of crazy things,
getting REALLY high over stupid things
and you know,its because we are all huahui people:]
im really glad that i chose to come into huahui
its a decision i guess i will never regret:]
***
wendy sent me some pictures yesterday
and oh mans!it made me start to think about bengta again!
mini bengta family!:]
on qihang 2005!
weilao 06'
and lastly,my personal favourite,
<3!:]
and also pingan,
i guess its this two jus that make my huahui life so wonderful
:]
***
notice the number of :]s on my post?
answer: 18!
haha!
i guess i really am happy.
it came to me as a pleasant surprise
i guess it is still not lost:]
now the answer is 19!
HAHA!
be it sweet or bitter; 11:46 AM
Saturday, April 14, 2007
had a lot of things to say just now
but just dont know where to start from
haha!
lots of pleasant surprises and thats why today is such an eventful day.
:]
when i was on my way home,i could not help it but smiled to myself
especially when i was looking through the photos:]]
shall start with pictures i guess
details will have to wait till tmr
hopefully i won forget anything!:]
we were amazing!thanks to this batch of people who made my day so wonderful.
another one!WE ROCK MAN!(i think i look nicer here:P)
the craziest thing i have ever done!:X okay.i admit im mad!
before dinner:]
YAY!(: we had to ask a lot of bypassers before someone agreed to help us take!
HAHA
on the way home! (its super blur!:( )
because of us, XIAOWEI became a 家喻户晓 name!:]
and lastly,
the star herself <3!
today/night is so wonderful
i wish time will just stop
and it will not end
be it sweet or bitter; 8:38 AM
Thursday, April 12, 2007
may those erased msgs be an indicator for me to really put down.
had a so so so so so weird dream last night!
haha!:]
its funny and scary at the same time
but i rather not be thinking about it anymore
it really freaks me out:/
chemistry was...bleahs!
im glad its all over though
physics spa tmr and it will be the end to this torturous week
a lot of people are feeling stressed up now for many different reasons.
argh.it feels terrible to see everyone around you looking so xian
i guess its scary to see how someone can change so much suddenly
is that even the true you?
be it sweet or bitter; 9:22 PM
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
i know i ought to be studying chemistry now
this week is so terrible
and im feeling sleepy even before i start work
oh!at least lit is over!:]
i dont deny that it will hurt if thats your intention
but what else can i do?
i seriously dont care anymore you know
im sure that you can handle it in a much more mature way
avoiding is not the best solution to everything you see?
be it sweet or bitter; 7:59 PM
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
i thought i was mad
i really should be studying now
but i guess if i dont come here,
i will just explode
so it seems that im really stressed out
which i didnt realise until today
thanks for the hug anyway
i will surely hang on till the end of this week:]
and thanks to ahxiong who tried to make me feel better yesterday:]
be it sweet or bitter; 5:42 AM
Monday, April 09, 2007
please get out of my sight.
i think im gonna lose control soon
i dont even wana see you online
cause i dont want to resist the temptation of wanting to talk to you
be it sweet or bitter; 8:45 PM
sent my phone for repair and they said that all data will be lost
including those few msgs that i once treasured
but maybe its good because it will serve as a reminder to me
that its really time to end
and im not kidding this time round
let the lost msgs be the proper end to this long journey
i really dont feel like giving it a damn anymore
be glad that i once placed you at almost the top of my life.
我可以 陪你去看星星
不用再多说明
我就要和你在一起
我不想 又在一起和你分离
我多么想每一次的美丽是因为你
:]
be it sweet or bitter; 6:00 PM
but you just spoilt my mood for the day
like...thanks ah
but who can i blame?
you din even do anything.
or maybe not doing anything is the worst.
but what can i expect?
i dont know either.
the feeling is just sooo terrible
and i dont even know why
i hate myself for feeling this way
what do i think im doing?
go away
and my mood for studying chem is like...GONE
i just feel like crawling onto my bed
be it sweet or bitter; 6:10 AM
Sunday, April 08, 2007
i started looking forward to it since yesterday morning
and i think its the best part of my weekend.
call me mad and i dont care
off to do some work so that i won feel guilty at night watching baisejuta!
jerry yan is oh-so-cool.
<3!
be it sweet or bitter; 3:34 PM
but sometimes it just feels as if i do not fit
im sorry
but i guess im not as committed as i thought i am
although i really want to do well so that i won disappoint myself
for the first time,
i actually hope you will just disappear
i dont know why either
but i just dont feel like seeing you ever again
get out of my life,wont you?
语无伦次
be it sweet or bitter; 11:45 AM
Saturday, April 07, 2007
we slacked so much
im feeling guilty
HAHA!
we were playing at the playground like 30% of the time
:/
RAH
off to do my work soon
coming up this week:
chemistry test
literature test
be it sweet or bitter; 3:01 PM
dont :( le k?
we shall and we WILL go home tgt very very SOON:]
i guess we are both busy people
but its okay
i think after this period of time then we will have more time tgt ah:]]
go do your chem now
shoo!:]
be it sweet or bitter; 7:39 AM
okay.i know im crazy
maybe i just enjoy seeing my number of posts increasing rapidly
lol
im in love with my blog suddenly
and as i read all my 315 entries yesterday,
i realised i really grown a lot for the past year
a lot of stuff had happened and be it happy or unhappy ones,
im really glad i survived
all the times i felt like giving up on everything
or even the times i thought i would just drop dead,
ive actually survived and even end up stronger from each fall:]
woohoo!
but i think im really stupid
since last year september,ive been saying its time for me to put you down
and guess what?
till now,i haven even done so
oh gosh.how lousy can i get.
be it sweet or bitter; 12:52 AM
today:]
cam-whoring instead of having paiju:X
yesterday<3!(although its very blur)
and lastly,a picture taken damn long ago during cny
i know its entertaining.
people,let me hear you laugh
HAHA!:]
be it sweet or bitter; 12:32 AM
Friday, April 06, 2007
its really nice<3!
i gotten out of the shitty mood i had yesterday
haha!
i know i can survive without you
i never had you in the first place
just a tad disappointed i guess
be it sweet or bitter; 12:32 AM
Thursday, April 05, 2007
but i dont know why my mood just went straight down right after physics test
paiju was...lets not mention it
after paiju i was totally emo
and i dont even know its for what freaking reason
maybe its just because of everything
i almost felt like crying
but now im HAPPY:D
although it feels a bit weird,im still ULTRA ULTRA happy for you:D
<3!
be it sweet or bitter; 6:24 AM
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
and thats really bad.
for instance,right now,
i should be mugging my head off for physics instead of being here
RAH
imtalkingrubbish
oh!and a mental note to myself:
i shall not suan you so often
cause actually,i really care:]
be it sweet or bitter; 5:12 AM
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
HCL test (tmr)
physics test (thurs)
and at times like this,i really should not be thinking about you
i dont deny
i guess i really regretted doing that
i just feel soo...stupid.
ARGH
i tried telling myself that my life will still go on perfectly without you
and i thought i managed to convince myself
or rather,i almost did.
i dont know why you could matter so much to me
maybe its just stubborness on my part?
i really dont want to lose you...as a friend
its really time to grow out of it
just a few more months and i will be leading another life which does not involve you anymore
i kept saying i expected it
but maybe i did not
so if thats your way of solving things,i guess i can only accept
sometimes i even wonder,why do i even value you so much as a friend in the first place?
maybe if i did not,i will not care half as much now
i told myself not to blog about you anymore
but i just cannot help it
ARGH
i feel so useless:(
GROW OUT OF IT MAN
be it sweet or bitter; 5:26 AM
Monday, April 02, 2007
but i think i screwed it up big time
ARGH
maybe i should not have done anything in the first place
but hell la,
i guess i cant be bothered anymore
be it sweet or bitter; 2:39 AM
Saturday, March 31, 2007
i wonder why i did that too
征服自己（黄义达）
穿梭人群里 水泥墙林立往哪去
黑白的电影 播放未来在哪里
我曾问自己 还有谁可以能相信
伤了没关系 我要的只是一个公平
我真的不想要 让黑夜陪我度过这世纪
我奋力将梦打碎 拼凑出属于我最终目的
过去就让它去 不再怀疑 我深深相信
抛开过去 做我自己 坚持到底
我要征服我自己 有我就有奇迹
勇敢就像呼吸 没有人能改变那成功与我的默契
我要征服我自己 有我才有奇迹
展开了坚固的双翼 穿越暴风雨
自信将是我唯一 完美定义
我要征服我自己 有我就有奇迹
勇敢就像呼吸 断绝所有失败
让蓝天自然地来临
风来来去去 雨走走停停远远地
我找到自己征服了自己
是奇迹
be it sweet or bitter; 11:30 PM
i guess its like a dream slowly coming true before you ah
no matter what,im really proud of you:D
though i felt terrible when i saw her like that
it made me wonder,
一个人到底会为了自己的梦想做出多少事情。
no matter what,its always good to try
if not 梦想永远都会是梦想，
不会有成真的一天。
maybe its time for me to work towards my dream too.
but it will be very very hard
at this present stage,i honestly dont know what i want,perharps just what i like
but im certain i dont do well in what i like to do
be it sweet or bitter; 7:35 AM