BYEBYE
be it sweet or bitter; 8:18 PM
舍不得，但还是要离开了。
be it sweet or bitter; 5:18 AM
Saturday, May 12, 2007
my blog is back!
shld i switch to lj or continue with this blog?
argh!i dont know:/
anyway,i finally made my specs!:D
rarr.
so should i switch or not?
shall go and mug soon.
im so so so looking forward to momo!:DDD
be it sweet or bitter; 10:36 PM
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
i rather not talk about it though.
although i dont know what happened,but i'll be here
be it sweet or bitter; 5:23 AM
Monday, May 07, 2007
sometimes i really dont know why,but it feels so good just hanging around with them,even only doing simple stuff like eating kfc!HAHA.
THE TWO OF THEM REALLY ROCK MY SOCKS OFF!
i hope we will have more time to spend tgt!:]
try to keep your mondays free okay?
IT SHALL BE ZINGER DAY!:DDD
okay,it seems weird to be saying this type of things to people whom i see everyday!LOL.but ohwells,at times when we are all busy with different stuff,its great to be able to spend time like this:D
anyway,to the SOMEONE whom i know you will be seeing this:D
im really thankful for your eh,encouragement.
you made me feel like crying la,stupid woman!:/
i guess maybe i just feel very...touched?
or maybe ive been trying to hide my emotions for quite some time le.
its really really great that we are still you know,friends.
as in those type of real friends.
im glad we still find it easy to talk to each other.
outing soon k?
we must go out after my production!
and just for your simple words,i will believe that miracles do happen:]
those people made my day
even my screwed chi paper does not seem so bad now:]
and now its time for physics.
be it sweet or bitter; 5:18 AM
Sunday, May 06, 2007
the whole chunk of stuff that i spent so long typing is gone
i just hate this feeling.
whenever im on my way up,i will just fall in again.
it sucks you know.
i feel silly for thinking about those things.
i give up.
im not ready.at all.
in fact,this is the worst year i had so far.
so many things not done
so little time
will we get there at the end of the day?
i dont know
and i dont want to know.
im scared.
what if,all the efforts we put in boil down to nothing?
judging from the situation now,
nothing can be for sure.
to be honest,how many of you actually think that we are ready?
its not a matter of believing or not.
we have to be realistic.
3 weeks,
21 days.
stop behaving as if we have all the time in the world.
she said,no matter how much time we have,or how little,its still time and things can still be done.even if its one day,or even a few hours,we can also make the best out of it.
i shall use it as my motto for now.
im not jealous.
just hoping that things can go that well for us for once.
ive been thinking about what she said
and im not sure too.
am i going that way just because everyone else ard me is doing that and im expected to do that,
or is it because of what i really want.
somehow,external pressure always stands.
in a few months time,the only thing left will be a bye.
what am i still thinking about that?
im not the wishy-washy type
or maybe,i wasnt.
do you even care?
im sorry.i know i suck to be even thinking about it.
the following 21 days are more important.
at least for now.
be it sweet or bitter; 2:25 AM
Saturday, May 05, 2007
progress is not bad i guess.
tmr is a time to chionggg
PHYSICS AND EMATHS.
i want at least a B for both.
《安宁》
你的背影让我失去了理性
你的放弃让我迷失了自己
你的离去就像刺青 永远烙印在我的心
是如此痛而如此的美丽
我努力的想哭泣 却哭不出泪滴
一次又一次的灰心 才发现早已麻痹
终于发现自己 已经不在乎你
原来分手也能如此安宁
enough for the day
time to have some time for relaxation
goodnight the world
be it sweet or bitter; 11:32 PM
anyway,gonna quote from mons
huahui is not about achieving & winning, it's about the spirit. We often make decisions which seems stupid & ridiculous to other, but behind all those, it's because of the things we believe in. That everyone deserves a chance even if they are not the best. Even when everything seems impossible, we never stop trying.
its really true.things that we do are often not understood by other people.
but we continue on anyway.
是那份执著
那份外人不可能理解的执著。
although i cannot say that everyone has the passion for what we are doing
but at least,i can still see people who are
and i guess thats good enough.
if not we definitely will not be hanging on till now.
every year,the time and effort we put in for qihang is so much that i cannot believe it myself too.
many times i feel really tired and unable to continue on,but strangely,i will always find the strength to carry on somehow.
这么多的努力换来的是启航当天无法形容的感动。
maybe a lot of people cannot understand why we will cry on qihang,
but its just the weird emotion that is so overwhelming that it cannot be control
and you really need to be committed in order to experience it.
i won bother to hide my disappointments
my disappointment in seeing huahui getting less and less bonded
seeing more and more people getting uninterested in huahui
seeing less and less people who are really passionate about huahui
是一种心灰的感觉
if this continues on,i guess huahui will just collapse one day.
and guess what,the day won be far from now.
i suddenly miss the old cldds a lot
huahui used to be pretty small and pathetic in size
but we had the spirit that is so lacking now
things are like so different now.
i dont deny i wish we could be how we were in the past
its not the merger,really.
if you force people into doing things that they dont like,
results will never be good.
unless the people make an effort and try to be interested in what they need to do.
what more can i say?
its less than 1 month to stepping down.
无论多执著，始终得放下。
and i realised passion can wear off too.
all the things that we believe in,all the passion and love,
i really wonder how long that will last.
be it sweet or bitter; 9:43 PM
paiju was rather productive today!:D
yay!we can do it!WE MUST:]
went to ikea with mons aft paiju
had fun walking around like aunties carrying the BIG BIG ikea yellow bags plus giant plastic bags!
HAHA.
i like ikea's hotdogs!:]
more or less settled qihang presents already.
YAY.call us efficient:D
but im like quite broke now and still got some not settled yet :(
anyway,today is a overall good day!:DD
lots of smilies in this post so its good:]
she told me 你也是个念旧的人
希望那些回忆你也在珍惜。。。
be it sweet or bitter; 6:07 AM
Friday, May 04, 2007
thats like a record for me.haha!
okay.shall start from MONDAY
went to KFC aft maths remedial with dear mons.
zinger=<3!
it was good:]
she was blushing because of SOMETHING:X
TUESDAY was labour day.
paiju was...
lots of mosquitos everywhere!:(
black XWEI!
and white LAYS!
tweety wasnt there.haha!
so i took a series of photos of her in the following paiju!
caught unawared!:D
doesnt she looks like shes doing some dance moves?HOHO.
and ju recess today!:]
quite cool except the fact that im like one of the few who were high!HAHA.
anyway,its good.maybe we can have one more before qihang!:DD
paiju tmr!hope it will be good!:D
and ikea with mons after that!RARR.*excited*
honestly,i cannot see whats wrong.
do you mind enlightening me or something?
i dont understand why things are well,kind of awkwardd between us now.
is it you?or maybe its me.
then i guess you should just let me know whats wrong.
i hate it when you,or rather,we all try to act as if nothing has happened,but yet it just seems so fake,cause apparently we all know that something happened.
sometimes i dont really get it when you expect everyone to put you as their top priority
have i ever been your top priority?
cant you see that your way of handling friendships is sometimes just so damn unfair?
im determined to study like mad this weekend!HOHO.
things to do:
-eng mind map
-chem assignment
-study maths
-study physics
-study chem SPA
tests next week:
emaths.
physics.
chem spa.
i MUST DO WELL.
ROARS
im controlling
be it sweet or bitter; 10:30 PM
so today was election for huahui EXCO 08'
it felt a bit weird sitting in the front row again and it feels rather sad to realise that we are all leaving very soon
i guess we have something very different from the other ccas.
***
no.you dont understand.you really dont.
be it sweet or bitter; 7:40 AM