shall start on my end of year entry
2006 has been a really busy year
it feels as if it was yesterday when i first started secondary 3
a lot of things happened this year
be it happy,or sad
and to be honest,i think i have grown a lot
ive learnt to be stronger and deal better with certain stuff
老实说，直到今天，我还是觉得我没有错。
maybe its just my way of speaking,my way of doing things
but thats me
and i have never meant it to be negative in any way
i was shocked,then disappointed and now,its 无奈。
i really dont wana change myself to fit the way this world is
call me stubborn
but i dont like changes
be it external or internal
i dont like things to change
and i dont like to adapt to changes.
it happened so many times
and i guess i can finally say,
i cant be bothered anymore.
不是不在乎，只是纯粹的无奈。
或许这就是一种成长吧。
***
come to think of it,
you almost filled up my second half of the year
whether im happy,sad or even miserable
60% is because of you
and thats scary
but honestly,i dont regret it
i guess i just din handle the whole thing very well
letting so many people know may not be a good thing in the first place
but its alright now.
cause im already neutral towards the whole thing le
即使你知道也无所谓了，我已经可以光明正大地说，
我喜欢你。
***
part 2 will be up tmr
before 2007 comes:D
be it sweet or bitter; 3:58 PM
| You Are 70% Grown Up, 30% Kid |
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How Emotionally Mature Are You?
| How You Are In Love |
 In relationships, you tend to be a bit selfish. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You are fickle and tend to fall out of love easily. You bounce from romance to romance. |
How Are You In Love?
| You Are 32% Gross |
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How Gross Are You?
| You Are 8% Nerdy |
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How Nerdy Are You?
| You Are Smokin' Hot |
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Are You Hot?
有点不好意思
| You are 80% Cancer |
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How Cancer Are You?
| Your Seduction Style: Au Natural |
 You're the type of person who happily plays around and creates a unique little world.Little do you know that your personal paradise is so appealing that it sucks people in.You find joy in everything - so is it any surprise that people find joy in you? You bring back the inner child in everyone you meet with your sincere and spontaneous ways.Your childlike (but not childish) behavior also inspires others to care for you.As a result, those who you befriend and date tend to be incredibly loyal to you. |
What Kind of Seducer Are You?
was a bit bored just now
byebye
be it sweet or bitter; 7:12 AM
Thursday, December 28, 2006
will change when i find a better one
yepp,and will link the rest of the ppl tmr:DD
be it sweet or bitter; 7:11 AM
this year's christmas was simple yet enjoyable
went out with esti
had a crazy but fun time:D
oh.and i went shopping for 4 days in a row
thats all i need to make me happy
sometimes i think im really easy to please man.HAHA.
was pretty busy the last 3 days over drama camp
it was tiring i guess
and i dont think i enjoyed it very much in that sense
felt like giving up halfway through
but anyway,im glad i did not give up
and its finally all OVER now:DD
the year is like coming to an end le
and honestly,really a lot of things happened this year
haha.
shall type my end of year post on saturday or sunday:D
sometimes i wonder if without all of you
i would have gotten over it by now
haha.
it just seems that whenever i have enough courage to forget
or is on the verge of forgetting,
something will just happen to make me lose control all over again
new year resolution:
just get over?
be it sweet or bitter; 6:19 AM
Saturday, December 23, 2006
anyway,today was rather fun
going out with chu
those who think you met with two mad ppl ard suntec today,
dont doubt it,
its us:DD
MERRY XMAS PPL:D
be it sweet or bitter; 2:14 AM
Friday, December 22, 2006
anyway,dont know why this blogskin reminds me of the kids at reds/kinderland
and ard 10 years ago,i was like them too
time really flies.
maybe it will be good if i can remain like them
never growing up
***
but on a more positive note,
its good growing up too
although the world is much more complicated and im forced to face much more troubles,
there are much more joys too
at least i get to know what im doing
and have more freedom of choosing what i wana do
its contradicting
i like growing up,making decisions are stuff like that
but when things get too complicated and the options get too many,
i just wish i am still a child.
自相矛盾就是这样吧。
will be typing my summary of 2006 and new year resolution in a few days time
in the meanwhile,
merry xmas everybody!:D
***
ive already received the best xmas present
thank god
be it sweet or bitter; 5:09 AM
我给你很大的面子喔！
i linked you like immediately once i get your address la
see how nice i am:D
monica chua!
how are you in taiwan?
should be missing me right:P
突然有种雨过天晴的感觉
be it sweet or bitter; 4:44 AM
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
感觉心痛着
感觉你不在了
谁来证明爱是存在的
我们被困着
被过去骗着
这一切都不一样
世界怎么了
难道说选择了忘记
而解放了自己
是否就拥有挑战爱情的勇气
当时光交成在一起
成说不清的思绪
我却只要那段最美的回忆
哦
memory 飘荡如空气
明知你在那里
却有难以跨越的距离
我们在放弃
涂白了记忆
以为就可以伪装无邪的美丽
难道说选择了忘记
而解放了自己
是否就拥有挑战爱情的勇气
当时光交成在一起
成说不清的思绪
我却只要那段最美的回忆
难道说选择了忘记
而解放了自己
是否就拥有挑战爱情的勇气
当时光交成在一起
成说不清的思绪
我却只要那段最美的回忆
我却只要那段最美的回忆....
----<<忘记>>
be it sweet or bitter; 8:47 PM
rotting,doing nothing.
its a very good way to relax and sort things out
its good to feel isolated once in a while
be it sweet or bitter; 2:09 AM
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
我必须承认，我从不是个坚强的人。
尤其是面对这种问题，我总显得袖手无策。
说我懦弱也好，脆弱也好，我就是不懂得如何面对这种情况。
前两次的情况我还记得非常清楚。
其实我不喜欢这样的自己。
这种只会哭，什么都不能做的感觉很无助。
虽然说前几次发生的事情有让我成长不少，但老实说，我现在唯一想做的，
还是哭。
就连我唯一能倾诉的对象现在也不在，我想我应该自己学着坚强点吧。
无论如何，我还是很想对那个人说，谢谢。
不知为什么，每次碰到类似的情况时，你仿佛是唯一能了解我的人。
我真得很感激前几次你给我的安慰。
如果没有你，我想我应该会更痛苦吧。
你现在到底在哪里？你每次人间蒸发时，我都很害怕失去你。
知道对你过分依赖是不好的，但我现在真得很想跟你倾诉。
hai
我承认，以上所写的或许有点夸张，
但写完后，感到舒服多了。
***
我想除了哭，我现在应该也没有可以做的东西吧。
哭，又何尝不是一件好事？
***
这是我第三次向上天说：
“不要，我求求你。
我真的没有办法承受。
拜托你，现在还不是时候。
请你不要这样考验我”
be it sweet or bitter; 3:43 AM
Sunday, December 17, 2006
i think you are on your way to taiwan now!so you will most probably only see this when you are back~
so it will be a LONG 7 days before you see me again!
and i bet we won meeting on christmas and after that i have my drama workshop:/
its workshop,not camp la.HAHA.
so i guess the earliest we will meet is on 29 or something:(
thats like super longggg
btw,chu was planning to celebrate new years eve tgt,so we shld be having outing on 31!
as for esti,i think we MUST plan it on either 29 or 30!thats like so damn packed!:/
sigh.its so ironic.you leaving today den esti coming back today
but she haven contact me yet,maybe she not coming back today
i also dont know.shes always so incontactable.
anyway,ZHONG DIAN SHI!
enjoy your trip lots!
i bet you will eat a lot a lot.haha.hope the vomitting won visit you these few days!:D
not to forget,must think of me everyday at least before you sleep k?
and happy shopping:DD
***
alrights.i agree its totally pointless cause shes alr on her way or maybe even reached taiwan le.
haha.
hope esti will be back by today then can go out with her:D
anyway,today is my piaing day
goodbye
be it sweet or bitter; 6:51 PM
Saturday, December 16, 2006
心里不知为什么有种莫名的悲伤。
告诉自己，够了，不要再想了。
但抱歉，我还是做不到。
be it sweet or bitter; 9:52 PM
Friday, December 15, 2006
cause my com was still in a crazy mood.
anyway,everything's fine now cause i got a new com!
:D
so,life is still around the same
was busy trying to finish up my 100 hours of CIP
and on 14/12,aft doing 4 more hours with the salvation army,
I COMPLETED MY 100 HOURS:DD
kind of neglecting my homework cause was out almost everyday doing CIP
haha
and i think i may slack today too
cause finally i have a com working in good condition:))
***
hello youtube!long time no see:DD
***
as for you,its still the same i guess.
when i dont see you,it seems that i will miss you
but when i see you,it seems that i still cannot guo wo zi ji zhe yi guan
what else cannot i do?
it hurts especially whenever i see you online
but cannot talk to you.
its not that i dont want to talk to you
its just that i have nothing to say to u
nothing at all
and it will once again dawn on me that
we belong to two different worlds
the differences between us are just too great
***
but im no longer sad.
i guess im just used to it already.
be it sweet or bitter; 7:11 PM
Thursday, December 07, 2006
nah,i shall throw this feeling away...soon.
***
no matter how hard i try,it seems that i still cannot get out
im trapped
and its sad that im already used to liking you
maybe im not putting in enough effort
maybe im not trying hard ehough to forget you
maybe...
haiis.
what else can i do except to stay in the current situation and wait till things go off by themselves.
be it sweet or bitter; 6:15 PM
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
cause my com crashed earlier on!
haha
i almost could not survive without my com
haha
anyway,celebrate the rebirth of my com:DD
be it sweet or bitter; 5:02 AM