Friday, August 18, 2006
it still disturbs me
i dunno why too
as in the feelings are no longer so strong whn i see you nowadays
but whn i see you with her
i still have a rather strange feeling
can someone please explain to me whats gg on?
i dun even seem to understand myself nowadays
you make me just so tired and weary
seeing you and her tgt does not help in this situation
sometimes i wonder what am i to you
i guess im just nothing to you
probably just nothing
its not even worth crying for me
or just feeling the slightest pain
if i just fall dead in front of you one day
oh haha
come to think of it,
im such a fool
i used to treat you as someone whom i can talk to
tell me,
can i be more stupid den this?
i dun think so.
how can you treat me as a stranger
when you are so important to me
i think im slowly getting used to the feeling
of having you in my life
until i become numbed
but when i see you and her,
the ice just melts and woohoo!
im drowned
again
***
i enjoy talking to chu and mons
just sort of get my mind out of everything
at least for a while
i really want to ahem you guys know la
***
suddenly realised haven been talking to esti for qt some time
must really find chances to talk to her
i misses those late night talks with her b4 the qihang period
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be it sweet or bitter; 7:52 AM
