Tuesday, September 19, 2006
when i was bathing jus now,
i just let cold water ran on me and suddenly i realised:
its time for me to give up
i mean its alr totally pointless now
i really dunno why i am still holding on to the hope that
maybe,just maybe,one day,the impossible will become possible
but now i figured out how silly i am
many times i keep telling myself to put a stop to it
and yet due to lack of determination,
i allowed myself to fall back again
deeper and deeper each time
but now,
everything will just need to come to an end
because you alr have her
ohwells,
even if theres really nothing between you two,
i still see no reasons to continue on
when i look back to the first day since i like you
i found out that you have caused me much more miseries than happiness
so whats the point?
i really dont know
i guess it was just a mistake frm a start
you and i are just...too different
theres totally nothing common between us
personality...
interests...
totally nothing
you and i are just two parallel lines that will never meet
alright,maybe we did meet
but it was all an accident
it has been 13 days since i blogged one whole entry abt you
haha
and i hope this will be the last
i really hope
i know it will be hard
and i know i have said this many times,
but im really really gonna let go
im giving up
because this is too much for me
the pain is just getting unbearable
i feel like a failure
i guess i wasnt in my right mind to like you
but ohwells,
it feels like a dream
and im certainly glad to wake up
***
i will think of you
whenever i see her
and there will be this feeling that i cannot describe
i just hope she will treasure what she has
***
chuwen:thanks for that call that made me wake up!
***
enlightenment
be it sweet or bitter; 3:11 AM
