Tuesday, October 24, 2006
dont know why when i read her post
my heart just sank
and i have a terrible feeling that she is refering to you
im not sure why i have this feeling too
but i guess its just my intuition telling me that
she IS refering to YOU
dont know why it feels so bad knowing someone who is also hurt and upset because of you
especially when this someone has much more than me
she has a past with you
she owns memories of you and her,together.
while all i have is a blank
you care about her much more than me
you care about her existence
or at least you are there for her when she is down
when will all that happen to me?
when will you care for me as much as you care for her?
when will you be here for me when im feeling lousy?
when will you just ?
i took that line off to prevent revealing the identity of you and her.
i carn even cry because of you
because you will never know.
screw myself
i know im a f**king idiot here feeling upset
when im not even sure she is talking about you
i mean,even if she is,so what?
i dont know why,really
im becoming a stranger to myself
i cannot understand my feelings anymore
and its all because of you
and i just have this f***king feeling that she IS talking about you
ohwells.
when will you ever say such words to me?
never.
just stop giving me those weird looks and i will be more than glad.
be it sweet or bitter; 8:46 PM
