Sunday, May 06, 2007
oh damn it.
the whole chunk of stuff that i spent so long typing is gone
i just hate this feeling.
whenever im on my way up,i will just fall in again.
it sucks you know.
i feel silly for thinking about those things.
i give up.
im not ready.at all.
in fact,this is the worst year i had so far.
so many things not done
so little time
will we get there at the end of the day?
i dont know
and i dont want to know.
im scared.
what if,all the efforts we put in boil down to nothing?
judging from the situation now,
nothing can be for sure.
to be honest,how many of you actually think that we are ready?
its not a matter of believing or not.
we have to be realistic.
3 weeks,
21 days.
stop behaving as if we have all the time in the world.
she said,no matter how much time we have,or how little,its still time and things can still be done.even if its one day,or even a few hours,we can also make the best out of it.
i shall use it as my motto for now.
im not jealous.
just hoping that things can go that well for us for once.
ive been thinking about what she said
and im not sure too.
am i going that way just because everyone else ard me is doing that and im expected to do that,
or is it because of what i really want.
somehow,external pressure always stands.
in a few months time,the only thing left will be a bye.
what am i still thinking about that?
im not the wishy-washy type
or maybe,i wasnt.
do you even care?
im sorry.i know i suck to be even thinking about it.
the following 21 days are more important.
at least for now.
be it sweet or bitter; 2:25 AM
